So last week....was not a very good week. I have been struggling lately, and so the other night I had an emotional breakdown that topped all breakdowns! School, boys, ambassadors, life, church...everything! I was feeling lonely and overwhelmed and had no idea what to do with my life! I called my mom and just pleaded to her to get Josh home somehow because I seemed to think that would make everything better! Although she begged me not to drive (lol cause I was crying so hard she thought I would wreck) I did it anyway and drove straight to the St. George temple. WOW!!! I have done this before, but it didn't effect me like it did this time (Rascal Flatts didnt help the situation though....listen to the song Forever and you will know why!). I immediately knew that heavenly father loved me and that everything was going to be okay. I knew that I was not doing everything I could do to make him happy, and realized that I was most happy when I was doing what I need to. I am so happy we have a temple so close and that I have the opportunity to go there, I know I need to utilize it more. I am so thankful for the gospel in my life and could not ask for anything more! Some may think this is a weird thing to write about, but right now, it is what defines me, and I am slowly growing into the person I need to be :) Life is good!
Monday, March 30, 2009
Defining moment....
So last week....was not a very good week. I have been struggling lately, and so the other night I had an emotional breakdown that topped all breakdowns! School, boys, ambassadors, life, church...everything! I was feeling lonely and overwhelmed and had no idea what to do with my life! I called my mom and just pleaded to her to get Josh home somehow because I seemed to think that would make everything better! Although she begged me not to drive (lol cause I was crying so hard she thought I would wreck) I did it anyway and drove straight to the St. George temple. WOW!!! I have done this before, but it didn't effect me like it did this time (Rascal Flatts didnt help the situation though....listen to the song Forever and you will know why!). I immediately knew that heavenly father loved me and that everything was going to be okay. I knew that I was not doing everything I could do to make him happy, and realized that I was most happy when I was doing what I need to. I am so happy we have a temple so close and that I have the opportunity to go there, I know I need to utilize it more. I am so thankful for the gospel in my life and could not ask for anything more! Some may think this is a weird thing to write about, but right now, it is what defines me, and I am slowly growing into the person I need to be :) Life is good!
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Oh I have done the temple cry nights several times, it really is awesome to crash and blow, and then recover and feel ready to take it all on! You are awesome! I loved seeing you at Alyss'a reception; you're such an awesome girl and I seriously just think you are totally great. Hang in there- Spring is here and the warm weather always makes feel a bit better about everything:)
Hey Summer, its all going to be okay. I have felt like everything sucks and still do sometimes. Also it seems that things to worry about just get bigger as you get older, not that I am that much older than you. I think that it is good that you are stressed because when those really really really big things come you already developed the skills to deal with them. In retrospect things always make sense and maybe you just need to find out who you are without any boys so that when "the one" comes back you are ready for him. I am just glad you care because that shows a lot of character to actually have passion for things so good for you. I'm glad you are coping with life's struggles :) Try to have a good day and most importantly just to be happy :)
I have had days like that before, and they completely suck:) My mom would be like "Anngie why are you crying, and I would be llike "I dont know Im just sad...so yeah they suck...But it seems to me that your bad day totally inspired you and made you look at things differently... you seriously are such a cute girl, and your so nice. You are a smart girl, everything will work out!
keep your chin up! God gives us those moments to help us to remember to come to Him. good thing you did. Josh was over for ice cream sandwiches, skipbo, & uno last night. he talked about how focused he knows he has to be right now. it was good to hear, since only a couple elders back we had one who was out by the airport (that's where they were staying), taking videos & pix of airplanes taking off all the time. too trunky! your elder's got a good head on his shoulders. its apparent he cares a great deal for you, and also has his priorities straight with the Lord. so, keep being faithful to your relationship with Heavenly Father and He'll continue taking care of everything else for you. have a better rest of the week!
-sister Romm
(p.s. how long has he been in the mission field now? i think he may have been trying to pull our legs last night)
Hey Summer, I am sorry if the jokes in class contributed. I was thinking about that afterward and thought it probably embarrassed you a bit. So, just wanted to say sorry if it had.
Oh sweetheart, you are adorable. The temple truly is amazing isn't it? Good for you for thinking to go there! We need to have a girls' night soon...it's time to catch up!
Summer, I feel the exact same way right now !! I miss your guts and love you!
Awe thanks Sum you are so cute! And you're right the temple ALWAYS seems to make things better somehow! :) And it is VERY true how much our Heavenly Father loves you. Never forget it. He will always be there for you when everything else might not be!
:)
You are so awesome summer! I love you lots!
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