So I was browsing thorough some pictures on facebook, and stumbled upon this:
For those of you who dont know what this is, let me tell you. The night before Josh (my missionary) left, we decided to go to walmart and get some skittles to make a skittles jar. A skittles jar is essentially 730 Skittles in a jar, one for every day he was going to be gone. Lets be honest, I SUCK at daily routines and cant even put my toothpaste back where it goes every day (just ask my roommates) and so I am really bad at the whole skittle thing, but apparently he isnt. WOW. do you see that picture? Do you understand how few skittles there are in that jar? I have exactly 46 days until he comes home. WOW. Today I was blog stalking Stacies best friend who just got engaged to her missionary. This is a little bit of her latest post:
"We met in high school. We dated on and off during high school, and then Colton went on his mission to Milan, Italy. We wrote most of the time he was gone... then not so much the last 6 months or so. I was sooooo incredibly nervous for him to get home from his mission. I had no idea what to expect. Would we hate each other? Be best friends? Be more than friends? Would it be awkward? Totally comfortable? I honestly had no idea. I was freaking out even months before he got home."
Uh, can I pass that last part off as my own thoughts? People ask me how I feel about the situation right now, and there is no chance I could even tell you. This is something I have been thinking about for 22 months and is something that I never thought would actually come. Right now I am so scared I cant even think straight.
I guess it just comes down to this. I need to have faith that everything will work out. Heavenly father knows what is in store for my life, and knows what kind of person I need to marry. If its josh, Great, if its someone else, he will take care of both of us. I just need to keep doing whats right. Simple? Not. But Im gonna try.
But wow, who knew a jar of skittles could be so scary?
"We met in high school. We dated on and off during high school, and then Colton went on his mission to Milan, Italy. We wrote most of the time he was gone... then not so much the last 6 months or so. I was sooooo incredibly nervous for him to get home from his mission. I had no idea what to expect. Would we hate each other? Be best friends? Be more than friends? Would it be awkward? Totally comfortable? I honestly had no idea. I was freaking out even months before he got home."
Uh, can I pass that last part off as my own thoughts? People ask me how I feel about the situation right now, and there is no chance I could even tell you. This is something I have been thinking about for 22 months and is something that I never thought would actually come. Right now I am so scared I cant even think straight.
I guess it just comes down to this. I need to have faith that everything will work out. Heavenly father knows what is in store for my life, and knows what kind of person I need to marry. If its josh, Great, if its someone else, he will take care of both of us. I just need to keep doing whats right. Simple? Not. But Im gonna try.
But wow, who knew a jar of skittles could be so scary?
3 comments:
Sum luv . You're stalking abilities are amazing. You are definitely allowed to be nervous, excited, and have every emotion possible about josh coming home.
holy canoli, summer! really 46 skittles left? or is it 45 now? huh. anyways. i can TOTALLY understand where you're coming from on all the nervousness. that is normal when you've got a missionary coming home. trust me, i've been there. for some it works out, for others there's a different path ahead. i waited for 2 missionaries. the 1st came home & married a different girl from HS. ok. no bigs. the 2nd one told me even before his mish that he was coming home to marry me (even though we weren't dating & hadn't ever)...but he was my best friend, and the last 6 months got crazier & crazier. and i started thinking of his parents & their grandparent potential. and it was all scooting along at a very fast clip. then a month before he came home, i ran back into my future husband. so my path didn't involve either of the 2 missionaries i was waiting for, nor the RM i was engaged to first. but it's still worked out eternally ever after. so i've got to tell you, its ok to be scared. and really you've got THE best perspective on this. leave it all up to Him, and you won't be steered wrong. =) luv ya oodles!
xoxo
ahhhhhh! it's SO soon....... GET EXCITED! love you :)
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