And for this moment, I am excited.

I dunno if you all knew, but I leave in 11 days. Yea. Crazy right? 

Its something I haven't even been able to wrap my head around completely. Its not real. I have been waiting for what is going to happen in less than two weeks for over a year now. As you can imagine, and have read on my blog previously, I have A MILLION emotions going on right now. 

One emotion that hasn't been prominently present lately is excitement. But right now, at 1:30 in the morning on a Saturday, I am freaking excited. I just had an epiphany. All of the doubts and fears running through my head is Satan telling me he doesn't want me to go. Why would he? I have the potential to change peoples lives. I have the potential to change generations and change them for the good. Everything that is going on in my head and the unrealistic fears that I have created, STOP NOW. 

Yes, the fear of leaving my family for 18 months is pretty real, and the day at the MTC when they have to curbside drop me off will be the worst day of my life, but it will also be the best. I am starting my journey. My motto for the last few weeks is: I can do hard things. And I am starting to believe it. I can do anything for 18 months. I know it will be no picnic, but think about how many people before me have done crazier things. How many wimpy girls have left their families and gone to crazier places on their missions? A LOT. And they came home alive. I will be just fine. So for now, I am excited :) 

I cant wait to start my journey, and I cant wait to change peoples lives.

ps...if you want an announcement and haven't gotten one yet, leave a comment, Ill send you one :)

and I apologize in advance to everyone who reads this blog, in the next 11 days, there may be some interesting posts. I have A LOT going through my brain!