So something that was really important on my mission was following the spirit and receiving personal revelation. Although sometimes it was hard to distinguish what is and what isn't the spirit on the mission, for the most part, it was pretty easy. I was surrounded by the spirit 24/7 and was doing everything I was supposed to do all the time. I had a one track mind and was only focused on that one thing.
Here in the real world, things are a little different. I feel like there are always so many things running through my mind and I cant decide if its the spirit, the world or just my mind. I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing.
Fasting for answers.
Going to the temple.
Praying every day.
Reading my scriptures.
Keeping commandments.
You think I should be getting answers right? Ya well maybe I am, but I cant decide what they are.
One minute I am thinking one thing then 2 seconds later I am thinking the opposite. One second I am happy and then something happens and I feel like I hit rock bottom. Why the heck are my emotions all over the place?? I am so confused and have no idea what to do about lots of things.
Being here in the real world, praying about decisions that will impact my entire life, how do I distinguish what is the spirit and what isnt?
When do I know whether I give up on something or keep going?
Sorry 3 hour nap, bad night and wayyy too much time on my hands today.
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