Alone time.

Sometimes, the time we spend by ourselves is the most important time of the day. 

For me, being alone and having alone time has always been considered a weakness for me. 

It means that I am alone not because I chose to be alone, but because I have been put in that situation. 

I always felt vulnerable and at risk for heartbreak. 

Thats the time when too many things are thought about, when ex-boyfriends are called and when things are regretted and when walls are broken down. 

This is what used to be. I have had to learn to adapt. I have had to face my biggest fear of being alone.

One of my dads favorite thing to do is go to the movies by himself. We always make fun of him and I always thought he was crazy. Tonight, I followed in his footsteps. 

Chelsea was with her boy, my roommates have moved out (and they are up north right now), Megan is up north, the girls were all busy, and everyone else has seemed to disappear. I didn't want to go home and pack my room, so instead, at 10:02 I decided to drive to the movie theatre and see what movie was playing. Luckily, Prom (the new Disney movie) was playing. I have wanted to see that movie, so I did :) (and it was pretty good).

What I decided tonight, was that being alone is ok. Its empowering. Its taking the time to analyze your life and realize that you really are strong. That you dont need the ex-boyfriend or current fling to entertain you. Its okay to be alone. Its not because people don't want you or that you don't belong. I think I just might do this more often. I better enjoy the alone time, cause in about a month and a half, Im gonna have a companion by my side 24/7!